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Nothingness

What's going on? I just don't understand. I wished to be happy yet all other emotions are coming in my way. Am I being so sensitive and emotional. Something's bothering me but I don't know? Lord God, please guide me. I need your light to guide my path of Nothingness!

Happy...(Lonely)

...what is this feeling?
...Happy yet on the other hand I'm totally in vain.
...some part are emptied while others are poured out.
...yet there is no reason for me not to ENJOY what I have right now.
...I know that everything happens for a reason.
...the mere fact that I don't know it yet,
...still waiting to reveal it's true meaning!

WHO ARE THEY...?

...sometimes being tired is just a state of mind!

...being associated with people who happen to piss you off all the time

...isn't that unfair

...they just thought of what they've said as a JOKE on their part

...who are they to treat PEOPLE like that

...who are they to judge somebody

...they might have different covers but of the same pages...who are THEY to JUDGE!

...they make fun of you, they crack jokes at you, for whatever it is, they shouldn't have done that.


One last thing, BACK OFF!

Hello My Friend

May 12, 2013 @ 2:30 I saw my friend. It was really an awkward feeling. I don't know what to say and what to do. Some moments were quite the same and some are not now. We had chats with what is happening on us both. How is he doing here, and same questions was raised back to me. We talked, and yet there could be a lot to uncover by the way.

It was really an awkward scenario that our place of where we have stayed had the same block (referring to an area). By that time his going to fetch water at the refilling station and then I bought bread, then I noticed a familiar face and it was "him". We actually have communications prior to our plans of a formal meeting that we could have dinner for sometime and discussed of when could we set that.  Unexpectedly we did saw each other. And then just so surprised of everything then I was invited to his area or room. He said his sister was with him on the room sleeping. Then we ate the bread and drunk the coconut drink he bought along the way.

Just so happy yesterday that I already seen him here. Just a start I say, there could be a lot of experiences by then. Thank you that I already have a friend in here that there's no need for me to hide my feelings because I know for a fact that he already knew me well.

That day ended..,so happy!

Happy Mother's Day

May 12, 2013

“Mother’s Day”

A kiss that is so pure

And a hug from you I am secure,

Your touch is genuine

Caressing me with all your love,

For all I know you’re willing to sacrifice everything,

For you to know, you made a great upbringing.

A son who doesn’t even actually practice greeting my mother with “Happy Mother’s Day” or saying mom “I love you.” Since then this phrases never came out to my mouth. Deep within me there is this struggle to say it, but there’s something that stops me. I don’t know why, maybe it’s just that I’m shy and don’t have the confidence about saying it. Let’s say its “KORNI”.

Even during my mother’s birthday of which I had regrets of not greeting her that. She is already 42 years old and never heard it from me. I felt so stupid and a worthless son. For I know I may not have that material thing to give her but for a great reason saying those priceless phrases will make my mom cry for happiness. Sure she will.

There are sweet moments we had that I always cherish. Everywhere I go and everything I’m doing were all for her. I always wanted her to be proud of me. I don’t want my mother to be sad; I don’t want her to bear the pain by herself. If I only have the super power it could be the power to transfer the pain whenever she’s hurt or bearing the sickness when she’s not feeling better.

Just like most mothers would do, their willing to sacrifice everything for their children, but for this time around what does a Son supposed to do, is that willing to sacrifice and take on everything just for their mom.

She is unique of her own being for the way she guided us along the way. No words can actually describe how great she is being my mother. Describing her isn’t enough.

Now I’m far from her and I just realize that before I’m just beside her and saying I Love You and Happy Mother’s Day personally is already a chance. By this time the only way to say this is through a phone call.

Nonetheless with this wonderful day, all I want is greeting my mom, a Happy Mother’s Day and saying I love you and give her a hug.

Saying this word will make me sad and wanted me to be near her, but this will also make her cry. But no matter what will happen, this time I won’t let this important and special day just passed and have regrets afterwards.

Two phrases: thank you and I love you ma.

TITANS Team Building

May 5, 2013

Team TITANS did it at Laiya, Batangas

Every day is so wonderful. I can’t deny the fact that as day passed by it got me so excited and nervous of the coming Team Building. And “WALLAH” the day that we’ve been waiting for has come.

I know everybody felt the same way too. Just so sad to know the night before the outing that four our team members (Cath, Ken, Kim, Kelvin) won’t make it due to the reason that they have scheduled commitments on that day and some have emergencies.

At 6:30 am, end of our shift…everybody prepared for leaving. We were not able to eat our breakfast at MCDO for Bobby Tan our Supervisor had urgent matters to report. He had to finish something on that day. We fully understand why there was a delay. “No worries we can still catch up with the schedule.”

And now everybody was ready to leave. We actually hired and URVAN which could accommodate actually all of us. Good thing it was actually Toni’s initiative to bring his car. Some bags were being settled in his car actually.

So who was in the URVAN? It’s ME, Ate Cess, Marsh and her boyfriend Arjay, Jessie, Sir Bob, Krissy, Patrick and of course the Manong Driver while on Toni’s car, himself, Armina, Kat, and Ming.

Now were leaving and travelling along the way, I was actually sleepy that time in fact at the back of the URVAN in which I and Ate Cess were located has a big space for us to lay down and have a sleep. But I told myself instead, I crave for this moment, I don’t want to miss every moment of travel going there.

Decision wise, everything was all given to me as expected, I saw beautiful sceneries of rice fields and those towering heights of trees along the way. Everything I saw was magnificent, on how Mother Nature provided us until now her beauty and how God showered it to us and still reminding us to take care of it.

There are parts there actually there that plants got dried up, I know not because it is just summer but of course of the Global Warming.

Ok, we stopped at a gasoline station to have our breakfast. I know it’s quite funny that we didn’t take our breakfast at MCDO in McKinley Hill, and yet here we are at MCDO on this particular gas station. Everybody is looking for another option but all was still closed and yet we ended up at MCDO by the way.

Nonetheless thank God, we still enjoy the food of course with the company of these beautiful people in which I am so thankful and blessed that I have them here.

After the breakfast we traveled again. I took us almost 3 hours to travel as it was expected. According to the itinerary that we have we should be at Laiya, Batangas at 11:30 am, amazingly we arrived earlier that what we expected. Of which is actually good then we had our lunch. Our meal is prepared by Patrick and his Mom; it was adobo, which is so great. Now were full.

Our check-in time is at 3:00 o’clock prior to that the team already decided to have caving and snorkeling. I am so excited, for it is my first time to have caving and snorkeling for I never done this before. Unfortunately not all of us were able to join; it was Ate Cess who’s not feeling better. So she was left at the van.

Everybody applied there sun block lotions on and there snorkeling attires then we rode on a boat going to the cave first.

Were so much excited, surprisingly were not able to enjoy the caving for we just stayed at the entrance and was not able to get in for its so dark then we don’t have the safety gear and flashlights with us. Aside from that the cave has a foul smell.

Then what we did was a picture taking as usual. Actually, prior to that some have been injured like Armina and Toni, for the rocks were slippery and sharp. But I’m proud for that because that won’t stop them to enjoy the journey.

After we were upset with the caving we rode back to an area we’re we could have the snorkeling. Haha, it’s so wonderful that we saw fishes biting our bread we prepared for them. There are a lot of them actually, everybody enjoyed and cherish that moment. Some actually had picture taking underwater for Marsh have a camera for that event.

Going back to the resort we had fun of waving our hands to those people still be going to the cave and snorkeling looks like we’re the representative for Miss Universe on that instance.

Right on time we arrive at the resort for check-in. Then everybody prepared the dinner and Sir Bob, advised us not to take a bath first for we have and activity before the “White Party”.

We had the activity and we enjoyed it a lot. Then we prepared the dinner for the party. Everybody was already tired and stressed and sleepy. Patrick who happened to be our master chef was actually tired by that time then, but he managed it.

Everybody dressed up for the party and some are still preparing the “inihaw”. Unfortunately it took them time to prepare it and some got asleep already. So no white party happened. After we took our dinner everybody prepared to take a rest already. Some had a drink of an alcohol first and some took some rest on their bed.

The next day May 6, 2013; after our breakfast Sir Bob initiated and activity using a lighted candle. It looks like and interpersonal relationship activity that we were able to express our feelings to everybody on the group. I say I’m used to this activity; it’s just that I cannot afford not to cry for it involved those moments. Three candles to light on (Misinterpreted, Sorry, Thank You). During that activity I remembered a group back in college which is the PYLON of which I considered my family. And by that time then I realized that I already have another family here in Manila. I heard a lot of revealing thoughts from and make it to a point of realization that everybody was special on their own way. It made me think of appreciating individual differences.

I should thank Sir Bob, for having this activity; he is such a remarkable supervisor. Because when your with him your will not feel awkward or uncomfortable. Thank God, he was our supervisor. THANK YOU!

Then after that activity, we prepared our lunch. Then the team decided to have another snorkeling activity. Our check-out time as at 2:00 o’clock, then the second time around snorkeling happened. I already have a better picture underwater of which Marsh took it for me. Then we drove back and prepared to leave the resort.

Everybody had a shower and ready for travel back to the city. We stopped at TOTAL were Jollibee, MCDO, Greenwich and other food stations were there to have our dinner. But we decided to have it at Jollibee.

Once done, Toni, Armina, Kat and Ming had their own way and we do the same. I arrived at Taguig and Sir Bob and Patrick helped me with Ate Cess’s bag and mine as well.

I’m supposed to change clothes that time but I already fallen asleep.

I know everybody was tired, yet happy for the moments we have shared. With that such kind of experience, it will lead us for a more bonded team.

I’ve read Sir Bob’s message the following day. And I quote: “This will forever be a part of my unforgettable memories that I will definitely treasure for the rest of my life.”

Indeed a remarkable experience.

Thank you everyone! Looking forward for the next TEAM BUILDING.